I have been such a super slack blogger lately. And by lately, I mean for like half a year or more. I’m sorry. It’s not that I don’t love to blog, because I do…it’s just…a few things really. I prefer not to blog if I’m not in a great space. And it’s not that I’ve been depressed or anything, because I haven’t, it’s just that…idk I am kinda just going thru my journey and just nothing big enough to update I guess. Guess nothing has been blogworthy so to speak.
Work is kicking my butt. That’s putting it mildly. Apparently I have discovered that I have a complex. Ha! I have many! But this is about learning something new. I like to learn new things…in theory. In reality, I would like to go from a novice to an expert in the span of three weeks. I know, I’m totally reasonable. :-) It’s difficult for me, I’m learning, to go from a position where I knew my job in and out and I was the one being asked questions to a position where there’s a learning curve and I am the one asking the questions. I know in time I will be the expert that I know I can be, and be confident in my ability and be worthy of the praise they’ve given me. It’s really all in my perspective I suppose.
Work is also kicking my butt because of working overtime. I’m trying to find the right schedule that works for me and my family. In the meantime, I’m plum exhausted. Everything falls out of sync when I’m not getting enough sleep. Add to that the fact that my job is mentally challenging and exhausting and I’ve just been a ball of blah. If that makes any sense at all.
What I think is worse than blogging negatively so to speak, is not blogging at all…and that my friends is what has happened. And like I’ve said, I haven’t been depressed or anything like that, but I just haven’t really felt the urge to blog. That’s a disservice not only to my readers but to myself. I started blogging because it’s therapeutic and I enjoy it. It’s my hobby. It’s my passion. But you wouldn’t think that by how few and far between I’ve been posting. Not only do I actually like the act of blogging, because it is writing, and deep down I’ve always wanted to be a writer; but I like to read my blogs. I like to look back on where I was and I learn about myself through re-reading my blog posts. So I’m carving out time to blog, just like I’m doing with working out…because with it in my life I’m a happier person and without it I’m grumpier. Both relieve stress for me and both have been absent or not consistent for long enough.
For real this time!!! ; )